28/10/2024: My head is throbbing

So I've been studying C++ for what, a little over half a year now? And I'm really wishing I had focused in high school math because now I can't make anything super cool like a raycaster until I figure out wtf geometry and algebra are. SO YEAH, hello world x10000 yay I can basically i/o stream "hello!!" a ton of times and maybe if I really pop a blood vessel I can figure out a number guessing game or something. Heres to the day when I publish my first game and host my own http server :] *cries*

9/11/2024: Can't give up!

It's been so long! So much for a daily journal...anyway, my time is increasingly short and my focus ever distracted in endless possibilities. Yet, if I learned anything today it's how much I have to enjoy right now in my youth. More than ever am I free to do what I want when I want without the fear that used to bear over my every second. The love of my life is finally safe. No longer do I have to worry if any given moment will be the last that we speak. This new place is exciting and the comfort it brings is finally apparent. It is time for my fears to rest so that my soul can be filled with hope and courage for what is yet to come. And who cares how tough it will be? The cold has no hold on me! I refuse to work in conjunction with malfunction, playing the role of a victim whos past dictates the looming fate ahead of me. No, that future can be my escape. I feel it already. From this little loser to you, I gave it my all.