I'm sorry that this isn't the most stylized site you've seen on the internet. Honestly I'm surprised you're seeing it at all considering it's kind of my personal documentary and proof that I care about this kind of thing. So...why are you here?!
I feel as though I ought to take these entries more seriously, only I find it a little frightening given that these are publically available on the internet. Almost as though I am censoring my personal thoughts. Maybe this isn't the private journal I was hoping for and I'm making a comedic parody of my emotions for entertainment purposes as I often do. Well, I suppose I ought to bleed a bit of myself into these entries a little more and water down the satire a bit. As far as progress goes, I took part in a post by the EFF regarding SLAPPs and it made me feel slighty better about my integrity. If you care about the little guy, I suggest you read this article. Better yet, their whole website is amazing. Huge fan.
I did a big sleep all night and when I was out doing laundry, I decided coffee was a good idea. I still agree, it was a tremendous idea. I feel like I have the energy to defeat god in a thumb-war battle, a full blown arm restle even. Little fucker doesn't stand a chance. Anyway, I'm getting a lot of paranoia tech projects started. Hopefully by this weekend I will feel happier about myself not being as lazy as I accused myself. There is much to do still, I will see to it that a resolution is found!
UPDATE: changed the name of this spot from "Baph's Code Adventure" to "Life Adventure" since I need to talk about more than just programming. I haven't been consistent in much of anything I've been up to, and that dissapoints me. I dont know if the 3am wake up cold showers meme is the method for fixing this or if i just need to learn how to run on battery acid...but I've been slipping. Forgetting important tasks, sleeping in, losing motivation. I need to see some progress or I'm going to lose my mind. I want to be good for something, I want to have skills, a purpose. I have a lot to study. Let's make some time.
It's been so long! So much for a daily journal...anyway, my time is increasingly short and my focus ever distracted in endless possibilities. Yet, if I learned anything today it's how much I have to enjoy right now in my youth. More than ever am I free to do what I want when I want without the fear that used to bear over my every second. The love of my life is finally safe. No longer do I have to worry if any given moment will be the last that we speak. This new place is exciting and the comfort it brings is finally apparent. It is time for my fears to rest so that my soul can be filled with hope and courage for what is yet to come. And who cares how tough it will be? The cold has no hold on me! I refuse to work in conjunction with malfunction, playing the role of a victim whos past dictates the looming fate ahead of me. No, that future can be my escape. I feel it already. From this little loser to you, I gave it my all.
So I've been studying C++ for what, a little over half a year now? And I'm really wishing I had focused in high school math because now I can't make anything super cool like a raycaster until I figure out wtf geometry and algebra are. SO YEAH, hello world x10000 yay I can basically i/o stream "hello!!" a ton of times and maybe if I really pop a blood vessel I can figure out a number guessing game or something. Heres to the day when I publish my first game and host my own http server :] *cries*